Published by Astraea Press on August 19th, 2014
Source: ARC from author, Bought
Please Note: I received this book for free from ARC from author, Bought in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
Verdict?: This is a book worth buying!When Meagan’s secret is found out, and she realizes there is no way to outrun her habit of cutting, she tries to work through it, and her depression, before she cuts too deep, making a mistake that can never be undone.
Meagan's problems aren't like every other adolescent's no matter how much she wishes they could be. Hers are worse. They've pulled her down into the depths of a depression that is anything but normal. She begins her pattern of self-harm as her depression threatens to drown her. She starts with one cut that leads to the next, and the next. After starting, it's apparent that there's no stopping, and Meagan spirals into a dark and cruel world she doesn't understand. Meagan cuts to feel better, but that comfort doesn't last long enough, and soon life is worse than it ever was before.
While learning to quit cutting Meagan faces life-altering obstacles and grows up in the process. IN THE REARVIEW is a story of pain, loss, confusion, and hope told through Meagan’s poems, journal entries, and a splash of narrative.
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I absolutely loved this book, it was so creative and interestingly written. There is journal entries and third person POV mixed in throughout the story. Usually, third person POV seems so stiff and hard to connect with the characters — but Maria Ann Green has a talent for third person POV. It had voice and it was easy to connect to Meagan and her journey.
Meagan struggles with doubt and depression, and finds her only source for relief through cutting. It was interesting to get into the mind of a character that thought this was a good idea — even though she kinda already knew it wasn’t. The journey from deciding to cut, to cutting, to deciding not to cut was a painful one for Meagan, and the reader. She’s a nice girl, who has flaws and brilliance both. I wouldn’t say she made a mistake, this book isn’t about judging the habit, but about trying to break free of it for Meagan.
Poor Meagan, when she finally does, her high school experience continues to have ups and downs. This is one of those interesting books that flows from MG, when Meagan is in middle school, to NA — when she is in college. Due to this, a lot of moments and sometime a whole year will be skimmed over. I kinda wish I could have known more about what happened then, but since the book is spanning such a large period of time I understand why the author wouldn’t stop for these moments if nothing important to her journey was really happening. I kinda would’ve liked to see more of her relationships as well, because it’s not until the last one that we really get to see what it’s like for Meagan. Otherwise, it is in the journal entries that they are skimmed over. Again, though, since this isn’t a romance book I understand that aspect.
Overall, I give this book my seal of approval. If you are looking for a dark issue book, this debut is for you.
OOOOOH! By the way: THERE IS POETRY! I love poetry, but I can’t write it worth anything. I loved that aspect about the book. Meagan’s journal entries were broken up by her poetry, and you learn so much about what she is feeling and what she has gone through/is going through with her poems. Some are short, some are long, but all are beautiful. There are so many gem lines and poems, I started to keep a list for my favorite quotes:
There will be THREE winers.
If you win there are a few things you will be getting.